When I see my friends being depressed, I get very depressed.
I hate all the idiots who break my friends' hearts. I hate all their clueless boyfriends who don't know how to appreciate what they've got. I hate their co-workers who bitch about them. I hate their college mates who beguile them into doing their coursework for them. I hate when they fail at something they wanted very badly. I hate when they get sent off somewhere they don't want to go. I hate their other friends who call themselves 'friends' but really just behave like backstabbing scum. I hate people who give them a hard time. I just about hate anything that makes them feel sad.
I'm such a malevolent person =)
It's not even midnight yet but I'm already so tired. It's been a mentally draining week, for some crazy reason. I haven't even been doing a lot, just stressing over storms in teacups and playing cartographer to subsequence. But that's not it. My mind and body is right here trying to focus, but my heart is just elsewhere. This is not what I want. I'm so unsettled right now it's driving me crazy. It's like having an extensive to-do list that you kinda left at the supermarket, and now you don't know where to begin, because you've gotten so used to seeing your lineup of daily responsibilities on paper, that when you don't have that list you're just left floundering, bewildered, grasping at fluttering curtains in your mind.
Every once in a while, I come across people that I really don't like. With the first sentence that comes out of their mouth, and the way their eyebrows move when they speak to me for the first time, I immediately form an impression. Because I'm judgmental that way. I always think that I can read people well. So I can't stand it when I meet someone I don't like, and when they turn out to be someone I fall in love with especially when I end up falling in love with them.
This fucking sucks. My heart needs to stop jumping headlong into things like this before warning my head. I can't take the shock that comes with the initial realization that, shit, girl, you have just been hit by a bus and a train. Give me a sailboat any day.
Shit. I don't even know what I'm talking about. I'm pissed. So bear with me.
*edit*
My current addiction : Nana - The Japanese Manga
It's exam week and I still have time for addiction...TUHAN TOLONG SAYA!
I stayed up all night last night trying to finish a 10 seconds 3D animation...
And presentation's today....It was pure agony!!!!
First of all, I have NO idea of how to use 3D Studio Max so instead we used Carrara...and still...the animation did not turned out okay...When my group presented it today, our lecturer complained about how the colors were all wrong...wtf
Being a university student makes me realize that there a lotsa types of people out there! I've worked with different people; The gila-kuasa one, The main-cakap-saja-but-don't-act one, The i-don't-care-if-we're-in-the-same-group-but-i-only-work-by-myself one, The useless-leader one, The stooooooooooopid one, The annoying one, The now-you-see-now-you-don't one, The mau-kena-suap one...etc...I'm not perfect myself, I admit. But I'm not the kind of person that could just sit back and expect my group members to do everything so that I can 'tumpang' the marks...And I expect this same goes for my other group members too...Some annoys me, some pissed me off...But no matter what, we need friends...No friends can die one, you know or not o?
In reality, we can't all be the goody-goody one...Only try to see the positive and ignore the negative...People that chose to ignore the facts on what is really happening around us annoys the shyte out of me..I mean seriously la! All they do is just wah there wah here, adore there adore here, bangga there bangga here...But refuse to see the dark side of it, and you telling me that we should be grateful of it???? BULLSHYTE! One thing I'm going to be grateful is when someone finally takes the initiative to look and listen and try to fix it...Okay!!! I am soooo...being emotional now! -please ignore this paragraph and proceed to the next one. Oh, did I make you bored honey?...go play with kites lar!-
Haiz...I am seriously damn tired right now...I can't think straight and I seriously need sleep! I feel like there's a big fat guy holding a burger while jumping inside my head (refer to the fat guy in Austin Powers)....But but! I am SOOOOOOOO...going back to KK tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!! I seriously need to get out of this island...it's eating me alive, literally!
So, I'm not sure if I'm going to update my blog while I'm at home...Because this thing namely, 'TiiBii' really needs my attention. Ho Ho Ho!! And yeah...I have to study too...Finals are starting on the 30th! Urghhhh!!! Can anyone here tell me who loves exams??? They need to be admitted to Bukit Padang or Tanjung Rambutan, what ever is in the way.
So don't forget to miss me okay?
I'll be going back to Labuan 1 hour before my first paper starts and going back to KK again just after my last paper...wtf
And and watch this! I laughed so hard at this I almost had a heart attack! Gaki No Tsukai...I LIKE!!! Enjoy!
*will take some time to load, but it is worth it!*
I went to UK with Jen today...no, not United Kingdom...Ujana Kewangan la! That's like the only mall in Labuan and I don't think if I can call it a mall because there's nothing there!!! So few shops...more worse than Central Plaze except that there's actually quite a crowd here... So this is what I bought today..totally unplanned!
A plain blue top, bling-bling hair clips, scrunchie, weird hair band, very chic handphone case and a bottle of vodka...
A bottle of vodka???? Now what is a university student like me doing with a bottle of vodka?? No, I don't drink in my campus mind you...I'm going back to KK this coming Saturday so this is just a souvenir from Labuan to me!
Notice anything different???
It's not the usual blue Absolut Vodka...
It's 50% alcohol!!! The usual Absolut Vodka is 40% alcohol...This is the limited edition of the Absolut series...
I have this weird hobby of collecting Absolut Vodka series...I don't drink them! I just collect them...because I love the bottle designs!
These are some of the collection I have back at my room in KK...the Absolut Vodka and Absolut Apeach are missing in the picture...
And yeah...I 'absolutly' love vodkas...
p/s sorry lame post...it's 3.44am in the morning lar....
RATING: 18-SX / 18-PL DISCLAIMER: View at your own risk. If you're offended you can always L-E-A-V-E
I got this from a forwarded email today entitled, 'Naughty Trees'. Perhaps you might have come across this from your forwarded emails as well. It has some pretty um.....amusing pictures so I thought I'd just share it with you all. Especially for those who have not view this before.
Tree with a male appendage is case you didn't realize.
Female Genitalia
This is really cute...I like the 'female' carrot where it crosses its legs so demurely. Oh by the way...did you notice that...the 'male' carrot seemed to be ejaculating or urinating 0_o"
Fornicating Trees...wtf
Okay...this one looks implausible...I wonder if anyone tampered with this photos (or any of the photos above)...I mean come on! Trees doing a doggy-style!!?!
What can I say...Even trees are horny...apa lagi manusia!!
Check out my new blog skin...I fell in love with this skin because of the quotes! And before you ask me anything, no, that girl is not me...I wish I have those boots too okay! I'm trying to learn how to design my own skin lar...I mean blog skin wei...Whatever la...Anyway...do tell me what you think ar!
I've been tagged by the photographer,Flanegan ...hmmmm...Me diam-diam pun bulih-bulih kena tag bah! And here, my ladies and gentlemen is 5 Sebab Sya Blog
Mo kasih hilang tension bah - habis teda bah urang mo dingar sya meluahkan perasaan oleh itu sya pun blog la...teda juga urang bulih kacau sya kan!
Mo 'simpan dalam pigang' sama kawan sya semua - banyak bah kawan sya yang kunun pigi oversea..sya pun 'oversea' di Labuan bah! Jadi sya pun mau kasih update juga dorang pasal apa yang sya buat kan...
Mo buat rekod - nanti...bila sya tua sudah...tu badan bingkuk sudah...tu ehem-ehem pun mo jatuh sudah...bulih juga sya buka internet kasih tunjuk cucu-cicit sya yang dulu bila sya masih muda, rock juga bah sya!
Mo kasih tau yang Sabah pun Bulih Bah! - anu bah...banyak bah sya dingar kunun ada urang pikir urang Sabah macam urang utan...tinggal di pokok kunun...jadi sya pun mau la kasih tunjuk dorang yang Sabah ni Bulih Bah!
Mo berkanal-kanalan sama Sabah bloggers - Banyak juga urang Sabah yang ada blog!
*This will be a short post because I need to prepare for my presentation tomorrow!!
I have this bad tendency of laughing at people's poor English. Well, my English is not exactly great but it's so bad that you can't help yourself.
Malaysian has this mentality to look up at people who could speak good English. As for those who can't, they will be look down upon. Obviously, it's not a very good attitude. Just because someone has good oratory skill, doesn't mean he's smart.
Well, the point I want to make here is that, even though someone couldn't speak proper English, they shouldn't be looked down as they might have something better than us eg. better in other languages. So anyway, the purpose of writing this crap is to serve as disclaimer for my post below. I don't want anyone to brand me an arrogant bitch who think her English is better than anybody else.
So here's the story.
Couple years ago, my friends and I had coffee in Coffee Bean. So this friend of mine brought her cousin, who didn't speak a word throughout the entire session. Then couple days later, she messaged this friend of mine in Friendster.
Girl: ARE YOU REMEMBER ME?? ARE YOU REMEMBER ME? LAST TIME WE DRINK KOPI IN KOPI BEAN...
My friend laughed so hard till he smashed her keyboard with her hands.
I finished watching the Japanese drama titled, "1 Litre of Tears". Yeah. I might be outdated but it's better to be late than never right?
So far, this has been the MOST heart-wrenching drama I have ever watched. Damn, I cried all the way for few episodes consecutively. Please take note that I DON'T cry watching movies or drama. I'm like the most 'stone hearted' person that there will be. If you think, I'm crazy, I know thee are some who started crying at the very first episode. Unlike other emo dramas, I got over it the moment I finished watching, but for this, I'm still in an emo mode after watching. And, I teared like my late Grandad passed away. No kidding. Call me a cry baby or whatever you want. Go watch it yourself and if you don't cry, you either got no heart at all or it's infested with cicaks. The worse part is that the fact that it's based on a true story cut my heart into pieces.
Yes, I asked the same question too. Why did it had to be her? Why such a young girl at the tender age of 15 had to suffer this kinda illness? She did nothing wrong, in fact she was a very nice girl who inspired a lot, including me. Now I realized how lucky I am, to be born without any disabilities, to have a normal life as a teenager should live and a chance for me to pursue my education till now. Thins that we used to define as problem aren't really problems if to be compared with what she had gone through.
Been able to open your eyes the next morning you wake up from your sleep and said 'I'm alive', is already a very lucky thing. So, why should we dwell on to the past because we should be living today to it's fullest.
Though the love element in it was fictional, but indeed it was really beautiful. At some point, it was so cheeky yet so sweet. At another, it was so touching and painful to even look at. Looking at such a cool guy broke down was such a painful sight. Always will be. Letting go someone who's really true to you for his own good was even worse. Anyway, additional points given because Haruto and Aya are really cute! Very amazing plot the have here.
If you don't know what I am talking about, this drama is HIGHLY RECOMMENDED. The flashback of the scenes was so real as if I really walked the 10 years together with her.
1 Litre of tear, yes I had a really cried a litre of it.
Life as a university student just get more busy day by day...Dear Lord, what did I do to deserve this kind of agony!!!! A good night sleep is undefined these days...Apart from trying to complete my assignments, I did try to sleep because I know even if I don't need sleep, my skin does! But, my body just feel restless whenever I lay myself down on the bed...I just can't fight the urge to get up, sit in front of the laptop and start battling with the monitor...and now my skin looks like a orange skin.wtf.
So anyways....just presented E-Commerce assignment this morning...Another burden is gone! yipee!!! The outcome is simple...but I am damn satisfied lar okay! The process of designing the website, trying to figure out the links and the cursing of the database! We were asked to develop an on-line shopping website complete with all the database and stuff...Not easy lar okay! Me hor...database hor...don't know wor!!! Sanggup I angkat my laptop to town (by bus...dear) to meet with some senior and teach me database...with my brain like can automatic lock I'm happy to say that I did manage to develop the website...*pats myself on back*
wtf displaying my assignment in public...I damn proud of myself lar okay! As malas as I am Lucy never work this hard before because...well...I'm a lazy bum (like you don't know already)...
It's 3.32 am and I'm still up doing my assignment. I'm now facing a dead end at it drives me nuts...Anybody know how to use Dreamweaver 8 and PHP really well??????? Oh please please please leave me a message...I seriously need help!!!!
This is a recycled post...I took this post from my Friendster blog...hohoho...So any of you read my Friendster blog....shaddddapppp....I menjawab seruan kerajaan untuk mengitar semula. wtf.
I never understand why most girls (exp. younger girls) are so into taking photos of themselves with make believe cuteness and even have the guts to display it on Friendster! I don't understand how some girls are not tired of ACTING CUTE. Isn't it tired to be something you're not???...In most cases of course, if you're really that hot-looking, you'll never need to act cute, you know... but that's just my humble opinion... :D
I'm quite sure that everyone has come across tons of Friendster profiles with CUTIE-PIE photos which are posted on their display photo for no particular reason at all...Like every profiles will have their CUTIE-TOOTHY-FRUITY-PIE photos....they can pose on bed, in the toilet(me too!), in the car....EVERYWHERE!!!
so fucking fake....
So I have decided...that since I myself is not an attractive person and that I'm "SO DESPERATE" for attention...I've decided to.....act cute also!......so that there will be lots of ATTENTION FROM PERVERTS so that they can dream of me before they sleep or TFKY...ooohhh baby...wtf
Some of the poses includes:
1. Points Finger to Cheek
Meaning: "Yes...Please see my imaginary dimple...I'm really cute, right?...You just wanna pinch my cute cheeks, right?...Say it dammit! Say I'm cute!..."
2. The V-sign or Peace sign
Meaning: "I just want World Peace...Yes I really do!!!..."
3. The L-sign below or at the chin
Meaning: I'm not sure what this means, but everyone does it so I want to try too...probably just hiding a volcano sized pimple.wtf.
4. Bite Finger with an Innocent Look
Meaning : "I know what you want...and because I'm so innocent, the more you want me...don't you just wanna get into my pants???*grrrrr...*.."
5. The OK-sign
Meaning: "...I'm just sooooooooo.....cute OK!.."
There..sick and tired of all my fake cute poses???...wait! There's another one! And this....is personally my favorite poses of all time...
6. The Middle Finger
Meaning: "To all act-cute-fake-posers out there...FUCK YOU LAR!!!!!...."
Sometimes love can be buried so deep you do not realize it is there. Until one day, something happened... maybe a movie, a song, a picture, a gesture reminds you that your little body is capable of holding in such great mass of emotions. Of love. For someone who brought you up in this turmoil world; minus the morning kisses, the affection fondles, the pat on the shoulder.
And then you think, how can I show my love for that someone whom I did not even kiss his cheek every morning... or even when I leave town. All the love buried inside bursting to come out in....in what?
I'm not strong enough to kiss him without crying. To hug him without crying. Or even tell him that I love him without crying.
Time flew by and I not use one hour out of the 20 years to tell him...Thank You. Sorry and I love you. I was always busy going out. playing. sleeping. at the PC. distant in my thoughts of work and my own life. that I have forgotten OUR life together.
How many hours did YOU spend telling your dad how much you love him?
If you see this... spend a minute and tell him you do. love. him.
I apologize banyak-banyak for keeping this post on hold for quite sometime...after Chap Goh Meh baru mau blog about my Chinese New Year holidays pula kan! I've been quite busy with that and that and yada yada.....
So the wait has come to an end people! Bandwidth killer I may warn you. And before you proceed I apologize lagi banyak-banyak because you will soon witness the no-skilled photography of me...I took all the photos with my trusty 2MP Sony Ericsson only la! No money want buy DSLR!!!!But I'm turning 21 this coming July *wink wink*
Chinese New Year Carnival 2007
I went to the Chinese New Year Cultural Carnival in Gaya Street with The Boyfriend and his family. I think I went on the last day of the carnival because Gaya Street was extra packed! Stage concert, some local singer performing...etc... Upon reaching KK area, the traffic jam was almost like the traffic jam in KL after the working hours and we couldn't find a parking anywhere! So we just went round and round the street hunting for a parking, even the fireworks could not wait for us! The fireworks was launched?/dilepaskan?/dibakar? and it was preeeeeeeeeeeeeetay! We parked our car at the side of the road to witness the fireworks.
shaddap lar I know my skill damn hopeless.
The fireworks on the left picture is something new to me because when the firework meletuped?/bursted? some red lanterns look-alike was floating around the big black sky and vanished upon hitting the ground.
So we finally found a parking just opposite the ship, yeah you heard me right, I said ship, the KK City Ship And then I malas want to type already...Here's some pictures
Nin Chu Yit
In case you're wondering, 'Nin Chu Yit' means the First Day of Chinese New Year in my family's dialect. So as you all have already known, I went back to my kampung in Tambunan. The place used to be as cold as Kundasang punya! But don't know why now so damn hot la!
The Fortune Ladies are here!!!
Sorry blur photo. My hands were shaking because I was too excited of the ang pows I'm getting. wtf.
My family have this tradition; every Chinese New Year there is some 'stages' we have to go through....
First Stage-Giving out ang pows
Mothers are seated at the sofa and all sons, daughters, nieces, nephews, in-laws will have their turn to receive ang pows from each of the mothers. Now, we can't simply go to them lar, we have to wait for the eldest grandchild of the family till to the youngest and then of course, 'Gong Xi Fa Cai' is the password to the ang pows la.
Second Stage-The second generation session
Yearly photo sessions of the Fathers and Mothers with the Big Boss, my grandmother. Then it's the couples photo session, the all-fathers session and the all-mothers session.
Third Stage-The third generation session
The cucu-cicit photo session, that will be us! Sorry lar no photos because I'm in it mah! Haven't got the photos from my uncle yet.
Fourth Stage-The Big Boss session
The family photo with the Big Boss. This is a candid shot la. See how my dad isn't ready and my grandmother looks like as if she's talking to my nephew.
Fifth Stage-The Family Session
Family photo session. I'm a happy girl!
Sixth Stage-The cam-whoring session
60s babe!
Me, Jess and Susie. I am not pregnant okay! Look closely la!
The hot cousin and er background.
The 'studying-abroad' cousin and er another background.
Take 1
Take 2
Take 1
Take 2
The Sis-in-law and The Nephew
Was trying to get that we're-so-hot look but we end up looking like flamingoes. wtf.
Take 1
Take 2
My cousins are crazy and we share the same genes.
Seventh Stage-G.A.M.B.L.E
Sandakan Trip
I went to Sandakan on the third day of Chinese New Year to visit The Boyfriend's family. It was a 5 hour trip! Not many photos la because I have a huge big zit on my forehead and I looked like a chinese-indian but to prove that I did went to Sandakan, here's a picture of me in the famous Buddhist Temple in Sandakan which I forgot the name!
Jangan mimpi la! No close up!
And from Sandakan we drove to Semporna and it was another 5 hour drive to there! No photos also because the zit just gets bigger and bigger! Ok lar...just one lar...
The Sandakan trip was amazing!!! All I do is eat......because The Boyfriend's house is a kampung air and all we do is eat seafood!!! crabs, big prawns, kerang, expensive fishes, anything!!! It was paradise for me....then on the fifth day my stomach just couldn't take it anymore and so it merajuked and then I was a loyal visitor to the toilet...wtf...
Went back to KK on Sunday and I was supposed to be going back to Labuan on Monday...But I malas-malas so I decided to just go back to Labuan on Tuesday lo...
And...I got my second tattoo done!
The Leo sign
Okay la! Enough lar...I got more pictures again la...But that will have to wait because takut I killed your bandwidth pula....Till we meet again sweeties!
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